Too much caffeine...

Today has involved way too much coffee. I must have had 8 or 9 cups so far today. I just can't seem to stop drinking it. It is possible I am substituting the liquid for my usual intake of alcohol. Combine the caffeine with my chain-smoking of cigarettes and it has been a very unhealthy day. I am actually feeling quite ill from it all now with the cigarette smoke inducing a gag reflex from my throat before the smoke is finished. I have an ashtray full of half and two-third finished remnants placed around the ashtray like some form of bizarre artwork.

So I have once again been holed up in my flat having spent the day reading blogs from Canberra, a city I once lived in. All the curtains are drawn, my dial-up internet removed any phone calls and I have no vehicle parked outside to indicate if I was home. The view out of the toilet window (visited many times because of the coffee) indicated a lovely day outside, sunny with a clear blue sky over the long disused gold mines of the surrounding hills.

If I had my vehicle I am sure I would have "escaped" for a drive on one of the dirt back roads of my village just for the escape. There is a waterfall down the creek that I could have sat and pondered next to. I could have walked there but I am avoiding that walk because it would take me past the pub that I have become determined to avoid. It was safer to just stay put at home. I can't wait to get my car...