A better day...

Re-reading yesterdays posts reinforce my belief in what was a really dreadful day for me. Last nights sleep was disturbed and I woke up feeling dreadful but determined to accomplish some positives in my life today. I travelled via a lift from a friend to the social security office in the next town this morning. I sat in the waiting area whilst a small child played in the automatic doors near where I was sitting, allowing the cold to engulf me each time she activated the opening. The office was slow as one after another of the poor souls in the waiting room inched their way to their turn. next...

Finally it was my turn and I enquired as to the status of my application which I had lodged 3 weeks ago. The officer seemed to take forever as she stared at the screen which obviously held my applications information. "Your application is not yet finalised" "it could take 28 days... or less" she said. "Thank you" my rely as I left as I have long since learnt of the futility of a verbal exchange with the officers of that government department.

I did some shopping for the week in the (cheaper in that town) supermarket to ensure I was fed for the rest of the week and then proceeded back to my small town to enquire about my new/second hand vehicle. It was at the local mechanics getting it's clutch fixed still so will have to wait a few more days for a result. I feel good knowing I have the money for it stashed safely away and would really be in trouble without a reliable vehicle.

I have managed to borrow a car for tonight's trip to the local Alcoholics Anonymous meeting held in the Catholic Church hall and remain determined to once again get back "on the wagon" with my drinking. I have graced the hallowed rooms of A.A. many times over the past nearly 20 years and wonder where my life would be (mental illness not withstanding) if I was some form of old-timer now if I had stayed with the program. Fantasies aside I am again a newcomer.

So far I have accomplished what I promised myself last night, to do today and am feeling better than I did when I first arose. Today is a better day so far...